Totally Tired

I am totally tired. Tired of being tired, tired of trying to pretend I am not tired...to everyone around me.

I am tired of putting on a happy face when I am bursting at the seams.

I am tired of having to explain my medical condition to friends, family and strangers alike because nobody can quite understand.

I am tired of putting my life and dreams on hold due to chronic excrutiating pain.

I am tired of not having the energy physically and emotionally to complete routine daily activities I always took for granted.

I am tired of living in a town where the majority is swollen with ignorance.

I am tired of being harrassed by neighbors with nothing else to do.

Tammy Faye was tired too...but stayed positive even when she knew. She was my eyelash inspiration all the way to the end.

Britney is apparently tired too...let her be...and do what she want's to do.

Rosie was tired too of all the nonsense on the View. Now she's free to be...herself...which has inspired me.

I am inspired to remember that others have it worse...it's just sometimes hard to handle how much it always hurts!

Be positive and always have hope.

Day by Day

Each and every day, I try to look away...

but in order to provoke there are new pics and things each day.

From the things I say on the phone...there are new additions on their home.

Boredom and jealousy is the driving force...which seems to escalate daily of course.

I will not sit quietly while being plucked...feather by feather like a sitting duck.

Notice the little guy hanging on the box...

you tell me if that's crazy like a fox?!

In the other photo notice the cameras four...

No, nice try, NOT security...not pointing at all our doors.

Breaking of stones everyday...

and EVERYONE knows that's how you play.

Garage, house, even the trees

from the birds, to the rooster and probably the bees!

I meant what I said, we mean you no bother,

we've all left you alone but then you try even harder.

Why? What is it that miffs you so much...

when nobody even stays in touch?

You were even nice once or twice to everyone on the block

and suddenly turned to all's amazement and shock.

Don't be mad and boil to a BUBBLE...

when you hear all the chatter and restart the rumble.

Rumble of nonsense and nutness it is,

the burning flame all night we both know what it 'tis.

No need to think you're being sutle...

when it's interpretation is obviously not meant to be muzzled.

Free speech and expression is all's right to bear,

only sometimes it's used hatefully...

to relish other's despair.

Who am I kidding, we know you don't care...

as long as you are engaging someone and playing unfair.

Leave me alone, like I do you...

and stop eavsdropping unless you want to hear what's TRUE!

SHAAZAAAAM!

Sunshine

Sunshine is warming, it's bright and brings light...
everyday it sets somewhere and starts out the night.
It brings solice and joy and growth to the trees...
and and always a smile to my face if you please.
Though it's effects can be harming to the skin we all know...
the life you feel basking in the rays, is hard to let go.
It signals spring and summer as we await the warm seasons...
and brings people together for all types of reasons.
Take some time and see what you see...
nothing like sunrise or sunset... please believe me.

Nice Neighbors

Why does one break stones

without even having a throne?

Why would one digress

after making positive progress?
At least understanding and courtesy

I try to be aware when I see.

The admiration of flowers and trees,

makes no difference for the invasions they please.

I don't antagonize or try to rise

the heat beaming through the others eyes.

Nice to start but only for short,

hence the nice neighbor routine quickly aborts.

Tensions ensues not from me but from you,

only to disipate with time but not hate.

Apparently, I'm wrong by the things you display,

though my anguish and fairness don't eliminate my from your prey.

Not the same speed...

but neighbors indeed.

Awareness and tolerance in life is free,

for you to learn and embrace to you from me.

The self righteousness and audacity blow my mind

each and every f....n' time.

Why me, why us, why them do you do?

Although niceness is all we've given you!

Paranoia and jealousy is ignorant and unessecary...

why don't you STOP being so damn scary?!?