Dr. T

With his bedside manner just as sweet as can be... my little hatch comes in saying, "Hi Mama" as he rubs my knee.
With a sharp elbow to the breast by mistake as I rest...
just visiting Mommy in bed for 'Goodnight Moon' and hugs before bed.

Night, Night...and

YOU KNOW IT!

Day 1

OMG! The anxiety has been unbearable.

Now on day one the healing has begun.
Starts with gauze packing removal at one a.m.
again at 6 I am back for round two again.

The pain is breathtaking 'butt' I have had worse.

My lovely husband has been quite a nurse.

Although, overwhelmed he's doing good...

to make me smile and do all he could.

Tired, sore...time for a nap...

You know it!

My Turn!

The time has come I'm fucking freakin' out...
but things could always be worse without a doubt.

Number 16, I think including all the others,
but this one is the Mother.
Cutting muscle can never be fixed,
like a rubber band stretched, no good...to be nixed.

My Surgeon the BEST, Dr. Walters that is...
he is informative, honest and his heart wraps the rest.
I know I'm in good hands, surgically acute,
and look forward to less pain in the future to boot!

No guarantees in medicine as all should know...
but faith, positive attitude and karma does show.

At least I can see, hear, taste and drive...
and at least I am still alive.

Of course, I was challeneged with the biggest of all,
on a week where positive, focus and belief are not small.

Catdog's hair raises up and dander will fly...
with reason, despair, hurt and surprise.
The eye that is peeled will always make the jump,
to relax, focus and settle over the hump.

My Kids, My Husband, My Family and Friends mean the most...
like to all you try to be a good host.
To know one to the core and how they'll react...
is something no one can count on not even a rat.

Trust is like glass so treat it with care...
'cause once it's been broken it's sometimes impossible to repair.
On the flip LOVE is kind, well meant, sincere and persevered...
but must be cherished, balanced, respected and revered.

All my Love to my guys...

W, T & C

PS Mommy LOVES

The Morning Medley

Here's a little shot of the morning medley, followed by a shot of the 'Midday Medley"

That's what he likes so...there it is!

Usually there is also cantaloupe in this mix...

but due to a recent outbreak of salmonella or e coli we have refrained.

You should wash the outside of all melon thoroughly before cutting through.

This way you try to avoid contaminating the fruit when you cut through on the knife.

Fears and Tears

The fear is overwhelming...
the tears just stream and stream,

as the unknown, non-plan of my body,

is days away from further doom or lessened pain...like in a dream.

ALWAYS POSITIVE, I am for stance and state of mind...

but chronic pain and illness....will strip you of your stride.

For the first time, I am clear...

but so filled with such real fear.

Although I am ready this is the end of the line,

but a new chapter begins with sunshine in mind.

Things will never be quite the same but different at best...

but could always be worse, just be good at your best.

YOU KNOW IT...

TSIGHT '08

Peacefully Inspired

You know when you have had enough?

You know when you have seen the tough.

You know when it's time to move...

and always when it's time to groove!

It's always hard to determine when,
until one day you reach the end.

The end of days of just no more...
the change horizon sittin' at the door.

The courage, strength and determination at best...

to make the positive changes to settle your zest.

To learn it and earn it and share it's rewards...

will always open the positive door.

As I chatted with a stranger tonight amongst friends...

religion and beliefs pops up as usual again.

No matter where, when, with whom or the reason why...

religion and politics ignite sparks on the fly.

Just a mention as such, in the group I was in...

brought forth a 'Wicken' who made basic sense from within.

What I said was, "I'm not sure of the 'story' that is told..."

such that my views are confusing to hold.

Not everything makes sense all the time...

but if the ridiculosity ceases to shine,

peel it back and don't bat that eye.

With others, empathize with wide gleams...

but always observe the swirling mindful seams.

You will find your answers within the eyes...

the truth, sincerity, madness and lies.

It's your right and your business so don't be scared...

to notice, feel and be aware.

Knowledge is key as they always say...

it's your partner in life and will guide your way.

Crafty Cannon

Felt like a *WINNER* of a prize...VIP

Clearly understanding the baby's need to be!

No hassle like I thought in line with a tiny two...

but whisked in right away and warmed up by both you and crew.

Everyone so genuinely nice and helpful off the bat...

you made my day, through the daily tears of chronic pain that lasts.

My Cannon Bay was mesmerized just looking in her eyes...

though usually more timid and definitely shy.

He liked her right away and I think recognized her from the blog...

and maybe will remember as we capture with decoupage!

Thanks for PEACE and parting gifts like always a class act!

Thanks to...Rosie O

Bourne, Cape Cod Basketball Tournament 2008

OMG...the day before departure did I ever think my 'tush' was not gonna' have it!

The pain the worst it's been in months...with the drain drainin'. My husband and baby stayed home because game after game in a hotel was too much for me to handle with everyone. It turned out great however. We all got a break.

The East Haven All Stars did great with a few unfair snafoos...but we showed how it's done.

Here is a little movie I threw together of the trip. Most pics taken from the car, a few in Woods Hole, Falmouth , MA (at the Marthas Vinyard Ferry); the basketball court and the hotel.

The music is all I had available so a bit...you know...but maybe I'll change it when I get some new beats. Enjoy!

Oh well stand by... it won't upload for some reason...maybe too long...trying to split movie in two...hang tight!

You know it...

T-sight Productions 2008